ally_fatty

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 03:20:02 GMT

gosh i hate myself so much!!!!
i dont understand it i used to be so happy and love everything and then i remember i must have been like 7 or 8 and i was in my first 2 piece bathing suit and i thought i looked so amazing........then my grandma told me i needed to suck in my stomach because no one likes a fat girl

ever since i have always thought i was fat and worried about my weight
i just hate how i look and everything about me
and those 2 damn pancakes my mom made me eat today did not help
god i am such a fat ass

o yeah and i got my eyebrows waxed for the first time today and they really hurt still and they are all swollen and crap grrrrr

but i was down to 118
[again]

only 3 more lbs to my first goal weight

but ultimately i wat to be like 80lbs.
what do you guys think is that to little im only 4'11"

comments much appreciated

thanks loves

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:02:34 GMT

well i am sorry i suck so much and i cant do the cut thingy i suck at computers -lol-

but here are some "progress" pics for me

well that is me at my fattest about 130 lbs.

these are around my lowest weight 105 lbs.

and lastly these are me now at 119

here is a pic of my fat face

and lastly one of my best friends who is better than me at everything except playing the flute and i will be thinner than her i will

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 22:02:42 GMT

i was just curious if this would work

please work

or not maybe

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 00:44:06 GMT

well i have been stuck at 119 this whole weekend and it is soo frustrating =[
but i have been soo incredibly moody this weekend too like ill be ok one minute and then the next ill be mad and then i just want to cry and its so annoying =[
and my bf hates me =[

but on a good note i will be gone for 2 weeks next sunday and i am in charge of what i eat there will be no one to tell me what to eat or make sure i eat =]

i shall be at western michigan university =]
at a camp =]

and i have friends coming but i can just conveniently practice my flute while everyone eats and just say i have already ate and its no big deal =]
maybe ill finally go down some lbs =]

today

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 02:45:53 GMT

so everyone has been commenting on my weight loss which is good i guess
but i keep thinking that if everyone notices that i am "skinny" [hahaha yeah right] now
then i must have been so extremely huge and then that gets depressing =[

but anyways....
i really wish i had a friend i could hang out with who was like me
but if she thought like me, she probably wouldnt want to be seen with a fat person like me

grrr i hate myself like times 10

=[

blonde or red

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 03:23:16 GMT

blonde or red highlights....

hmmm i cant decide which color i want to get......

my hair is naturally a light blonde and i have some red highlights in but i dont know if i wanna go for darker hair that will turn light in the sun or light hair that will just get lighter....

idk

Writer's Block: Happy Friday

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 16:36:31 GMT

What are you most looking forward to this weekend?

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Well, this weekend is prom. I am very excited I have a date and we have a car and a driver =] me and my friends are also going to hang out =]